Freedom 5k

You all heard that I walked a 5k with a friend two weeks ago, and I’m sure you know that I was in another 5k this weekend (because I have a big mouth and told the world), but I thought I’d give you some details on the race.

                                            freedom 5k

I woke up late Saturday morning after ignoring my three alarms, and felt like I had a small elephant sitting on my chest. My allergies have been pretty bad the last week or so, but this was the first day it has affected my breathing. The only thing that got me out of bed was reminding myself that my house was at the half-way point of the race, so I could stop if I was dying.

I got up, dressed, had a Clif Bar for breakfast, took my vitamins, fixed my hair, and was ready to go when PJ headed out to work. He dropped me off at the church (AKA the start and finish line), collected my t-shirt, and I was on my own. (I was a little sad to have bib #1771 instead of #1776 because I’m a big ole nerd.) I could tell by looking that most of the people there were serious runners. I didn’t let it get to me though because this was my first attempt at running a 5k, alone, and without music. Also, I still couldn’t really breathe.

I had already decided I would walk the first half mile or so as a warm-up, so when the starting gun went off, I started walking. This is where I admit that I have super short stumpy legs. My walking pace is ssslllooooooooowwwww. At the half mile mark, I started jogging (also slow). My lungs still felt like they were trying to collapse. When I was close to home, I called my mom and had her bring a water bottle out to me. My first walk break was two blocks uphill from there. I slowly jogged the next 3/4 mile or so, barely keeping ahead of a lady walking and pushing a stroller. From then on, each time I walked, she passed me, and each time I ran, I passed her. The last leg of the race was uphill (of course), so I walked the first part, said a prayer (a combination of “running this race with endurance” and “please don’t let me die”…), and made the last surge (ha!) up the hill, up the driveway, and across the finish line.

I settled on a nice shady place in the grass to stretch, where I then had a very awkward moment with the stroller lady (one of those “Thank God I will probably never see this person again” moments). It seemed as good a time as any to walk home after that.

My time was 45 minutes. It wasn’t my fastest, but it’s a good starting point as far as races go. I survived. I finished running. I beat the lady walking with the stroller. Barely. I didn’t even care that I was the last of the runners. I was just glad to not be last.

Starting from Scratch

In the last two months, I have logged three miles running, and walked a 5k (3.1 miles). My husband was given a promotion several weeks ago, and since then, time for me to run has been scarce. The temperature has also been much warmer than what I am used to running in. Then I had to cancel my trip to Boise for the half marathon I had been training for for months. Roll these together, and you have the foundation I built my depression and laziness on.

In that time, not only did I stop running, but I stopped eating healthy. When I stepped onto the scale this morning, it pointed out that I have regained 9 of the 21 pounds I had lost. Ugh. I don’t want to go back to where I was. It’s time for me to set a new goal, and make it happen.

First of all, I have another 5k coming up this Saturday. I don’t know if I will be able to run the whole thing or not. This is a major setback for me. I went out for a run tonight and only managed 1.5 miles. It’s like I’m starting over from scratch. At one point, I actually wished I could break my pelvis while running so that I would have a reason for stopping that sounded better than, “It hurts.” or, “I’m a quitter.” No such luck.

I’m going to spend the rest of this week thinking about what I really want to do, and I will work out my training starting next week. I will “run the race before me with endurance”, even if I’m not sure what it is yet. I will make healthier choices, and keep my weight going in the right direction (right after this fudge cake is gone…).

Have you encountered a setback lately? What are you doing to get yourself back on track"?